8 months and amazed!

Really? My child is actually going to be 9 months in a short two weeks? This pregnancy, second child, and life has gone fast. I am sitting here at 11:30pm with my glass of wine enjoying my Saturday evening. What's funny is how comfortable we are with just staying home. Mikey is doing very well. He is eating like a pig and trying to climb on me, beds, and furniture. The crawling... not soo much. He hates being on the tummy and loves to reach up to walk.

But overall life is good. We are working (or I'm working on cleaning out our house.) This is a slow process, since I am cleaning constantly and putting laundry away over and over again. My idea is that we can have a garage sale in early summer. Then start fixing the house up to sell.

Unfortunately, this is my Grandmother's house and my Mom and Aunt grew up here. It's bittersweet to say that we are going to start the selling process. This house was built for my Grandmother and Grandfather in the 1960's when they moved their family from Dallas, TX. We have many many memories in this house. I feel that this house has a few spirits watching over us. My Great Grandmother, Floy Clementine died in this house and I really think my Granddaddy's presence is here.

It's been wonderful to raise my children here, but we have a business up in north Parkville, MO and honestly our location isn't convenient for either of us. But back to the kiddos, I call Mr. Mikey "Smiley Mikey." He really is a happy baby! SLEEPING FINALLY!!!!!! I think after having two children that I really prefer ages 6months-1year with babies. Newborns really aren't my thing. They are cute and perfect. But no sleeping and gassy is not fun!

I am looking forward to spend my summer with the kiddos. And... I am happy to be a new Aunt to my neice Annie Lynn Fuhrig!! My little sis, Kate's baby!!

6 months ago

Six months ago, I had Mr. Michael Pouche. It doesn't seem that it's been that fast! Being a mother to Mikey and Mary Caroline has been tough, fun, exhusting, worrisome(is that a word?), and a HUGE change. I love my children and my life now but no one really ever tells you about the emotional rollercoaster that it does to you. Yes, they say it's hard but you don't really understand that word-hard till you've expirenced this time (having a two year old and 6 month old).

For the last two years, I have felt disconnected to parts of my life, friends, or world around me. Sometimes it really bugs me and other days I take it as "Okay life changes, get over it." For me, I've always felt "in the know" maybe I like gossip or socializing too much. But, this new Mommy world doesn't give me the time to be in that social world. Again, one day I am upset and sad about it then the next day I'm fine.

I don't have alot of time to watch much t.v., read magazines, go to the store by myself, or have social time out. I remember finally feeling "normal" when Mary Caroline was about 10 months old. I think the first year is a cluster f. I thought it would be a little bit better the second time around but there is less time and more children. :)

I had a break down two weeks ago when I had a chance to get out for a night with friends. Ash and I ate dinner and actually got to go to a bar. I was upset because, the weekend before I couldn't make it out to my friend's bday party because I was exhusted from two sicky children. I also got upset at the fact that my Christmas was a blur. I haven't been able to really see or talk to my best friend and her baby in St. Louis for very long periods of time. I've not been real shopping in forever and when I did I felt like a fish out of water. I don't know what's in style or bought myself clothes for two years.

But..... six months ago I had a gift from God. This gift was a challenge and I am tackling this challenge one day at a time... So... if you've read this and haven't heard from me in while... now you know that no one has really heard from me. I'm just walking around with my head cut off! I'll let you know when I have put it back on. :)

Remember this: this is a bunch of rambling from a tired, overstressed Mommy. Sorry! :)